Posts Tagged ‘obedience’

Gasping for Air [***]

April 6, 2009 Leave a comment

I spent a lot of time in swimming pools while growing up, and there seemed to always be other kids my age to play with. During various periods in my life, I made acquaintances with boys who had an affinity for drowning games. It was “fun” to hold the other under water for as long as we could. It wasn’t a matter of simply putting weight on the other. No, we actively resisted allowing the other to come to the surface for air. Sometimes the one under the water would struggle hard enough to break free to the surface on his own. Other times, the one above the surface had to forfeit the fight lest the other fill his lungs with water and ultimately die. I don’t remember why we played these games or what we thought was fun about them, but I do recall several of the times that I was the one under the water battling for passage to the surface. Air is a precious thing that is so common that we completely take it for granted in our day-to-day lives. When it is withheld from us, though, our desire to get it back becomes our number one priority making all other desires inconsequential. I remember moments underwater when I wasn’t sure if I’d ever have air again. In fact, I have inhaled water countless times. In those moments, fear and panic overtook me in ways that I have never experienced in any other circumstances. Death was pounding on my door. Read more…


Watts (Part 1)

October 28, 2007 Leave a comment

Well, it has been a very long time since my last blog and a lot has happened. While some things have changed tremendously, other things have remained the same. For instance, I am still working for the employer that brought me to Orange County over three years ago*, I am still attending Rock Harbor church in Costa Mesa, I still lead a small bible study group, and I still have two wonderfully precious children.

Are you familiar with burning bushes? Has one ever talked to you? Well, my name is not Moses and no bushes have ever talked to me, but several months ago God told me to do something that has significantly impacted the direction of my life. I have been leading a bible study for a while now, and I have spent a lot of time in church, in private school, and in the Bible. However, when you get down to my core, I am a self-absorbed person who has a lot of fears and insecurities. My inner problems prevent me from doing anything truly significant in this world. Fortunately, God doesn’t call on perfect people to do His work. Read more…